Wednesday, March 23, 2011

The Magnitude of Silence

I truly believe that the one and only set back to having children is the inability to hear yourself thinking, due to the constant roar of questions and chatter and banging and crying and singing and yes even sometimes screaming. So to have just one short moment of absolute silence is almost immpossible. Even the occasional soak in the tub is interupted by "I cant button my pants." or "What are the letters in camera?" and just recently "Dexter smells funny.".

So when the opportunity arises to have honest and pure silence I do not know a single parent that would not jump on that bandwagon in a trillionth of a second. 


Well our opportunity came. It came in the form of Free Nursery Night at our church. Seriously, God bless them! So we decided that Dexter was old enough now and could handle a few hours in the care of someone else other than my doting mother. So we packed the diaper bag and made the production of loading everyone into the truck and we headed off. We dropped them off and said goodbye and very quickly rushed out of the building and back to the car. 

We both sat and took a long, deep, appeasing breath. And then it happened, we realized we were in silence. We were finally able to think without being interrupted and we became all too conscious of the absolute silence. Then Ryan turned to me and said " Instead of dinner would you like to just sit in the car?" We laughed together and decided we would, in fact go have dinner together and then laughed when I still ordered off of the kids menu.


It was amazing! We had dinner without any highchairs or booster seats, without requesting any kids cups with a lid, without making 15 trips to the bathroom, and without rushing! Oh, glorious day! But then we both realized we were both looking at the time quite often and when our dinner was done we hurried back to pick up our kids. 


You see, silence is marvelous! However, when I really thought about it (I could actually do that for once), I missed the questions, the I love you's, and yes even the screaming. I missed the beautiful noise.